Wednesday, April 22, 2009

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This is my "suggested match" for the week....Tempted, anyone? (shudders)


Hello Ladies, My name is Jon. I am recently divorced after nearly 17 years. She decided cheating was what she would rather do than be with me. I know this sounds like I am bitter, but I am not. I am still a little hurt and working through that as I put my life back together. I have 5 fantastic kids from two marriages. They are 20, 17, 16, 12, 10. They are my world and I love them more than life ...

Thursday, April 9, 2009

before and since

My life before making an effort to date: I spend my evenings doing things I enjoy, happy to be me, content with how my life is now, even if it's not what I expected my life would be.

My life since I decided to make said effort: I spend my evenings doing things I enjoy, but with a little less energy than before, and feeling not so content with my life, because I'm trying to date and all I've gotten out of it so far is rejection. With a little roller-coaster ride for my feelings along the way, when it looked like someone was interested and I might get to go out on an actual date.

Same life, but now I get to feel bad about it and evoke pity.

Monday, April 6, 2009

the weekend without the date

First, I'm not upset. I'm more relieved than anything. I knew it was going to take a lot of energy to be charming, or even civil, just because I'm worn out with working long hours, so already the whole idea was stressful to me. Tax season is not the best time to meet me for the first time. (The upside to that is, if he still liked me after meeting me this time of year, he'd really have liked me come June, when my life is more normal.) I'm a little miffed that he cancelled, but only because I think that's rude (and because this means I still haven't been on a date). There are good reasons to cancel a date, but another girl is not an emergency, it's a choice.

An interesting side note: Gardner Mill (where Archibald's restaurant is) was mentioned in one of the talks. (The one about the guy who came here, built the mill with his brother, lost everything, went on a mission, and then built the business back up, only to get called on another mission.) I noticed it, because I'm familiar with the history of the place. I hope if he noticed, he sat there wondering if he should have met me for dinner anyway.

Instead of the date: I worked late, stopped at my parents to help with a quilt for my niece, saw a movie with one of my co-workers, and went home to a good book.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

David cancelled

says he wants to see how another of his online relationships works out

back to square one

will I ever get a date?

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

fortune cookie

Panda for dinner at the office. My fortune cookie read:

from a past misfortune, good luck will come to you

I can read all kinds of things into that.

oh, just forget about the whole thing

I'm channeling Jimmy Stewart this week. Or George Bailey, anyway. You know, the scene in Wonderful Life, where he's sharing the phone with Mary/Donna Reed, talking to Sam in New York? "I don't want any ground floors and I don't want any plastics! I wanna do what I wanna do, and I don't need you or Sam or anyone else..." shortly after which they are passionately kissing as they drop the phone to the floor, Sam still on the line, Mother upstairs looking shocked.

I don't envision my scenario ending quite that well, though.

All week, all I can think is "I know how to live my life as it is, I don't want a date, I don't need a date, I don't want to fall in love with anyone, life is much easier without a relationship anyway..."

I am so stressed out this week at work, this whole thing is probably a bad idea.