spineless?

The guy in South Jordan still hasn't asked me out. He sends me this message last week that begins "Oh nameless one" (I forget they don't already know), and so I answer back starting with "He who has not asked me out yet" and ending with, yes, my name, followed by "which isn't as common as some, which makes me easier to track down, and thus more vulnerable". (Hey, you have to be careful, and just how many other girls do you think have my name? Look it up sometime - we're like an exclusive club or something.)

Two messages later, he STILL hasn't asked me out. He just dances around the subject, says he has the kids all the time, etc. I've threatened to refer to him as "spineless one" until he does.

meet me by my locker...

and I'll tell you all about it! (I feel like high school all over again: "so, what's he like?" and all that)

I know, there isn't much more to tell until next week. Except...he just sent me the little flirt that says "sent you a big hug" (with this cute cartoon of a couple hugging).

If he isn't really this cute/fun/nice in person, I will be so crushed.

what to wear?

Last night, it hits me: I've got no clue what I'll wear on my date. And I started to panic. I'm not sure I know how to dress for a date anymore. My last date was a lunch, on a working day, so I was in a suit. Maybe a little dressier than an ordinary work day, but I didn't go to a lot of trouble. Plus, I'd already met that guy, spent time with him at a couple of dances, so he'd seen me in a few different outfits, casual to dressy (he, on the other hand, never mind the event, was in jeans every time).
But I'm nervous about this one. This is the big "first impression" here. I want that first look to be memorable, in a good way. Or, at least, not disappointing. And this weather isn't helping. If it's cold and blowing and snowy next Friday, wearing a pastel floral skirt (because I have seriously nice legs) won't quite work. But in any case, would a skirt be too much? I mean, I'll be coming from work anyway, and he knows that. This is not something I'll have oodles of time to get ready for, because that's how my schedule is right now. I'm thinking a suit would be excusable, since I am coming directly from work, but will that make me look unapproachable?

I can't even think which outfits I look best in. My mind goes all scrambled thinking about it.

again with the young ones

Does a 34-yr-old really want to date me? Did he think that through? Again, I ask you, what is with all these young guys flirting with me?
And incidentally, how does someone manage to have 6 kids by that age? And why would I be interested in knowing he has "nice lips"? There is a picture, so why emphasize that point in print?

Maybe my pics distract them from my age. I'm just so cute, they can't help themselves.

carrot-cake temptress

Nope, David is not put off by my non-dating record, or by my (as he puts it) candor. (at least, that's what he says. I'm trying to take that on face value)

So, unless it turns out he was merely tempted by the idea of tasting my carrot cake (allow me to digress here: "just how good is my carrot cake? is it 2nd date good? absolutely. Is it invite-me-to-visit good?" and that's where I lost my courage. Funny is one thing, but that's going a bit far for someone I've yet to meet. Even if it IS that good), my theory holds true. You really have to just be honest, and let what happens, happen. I don't want someone who likes some "idea" of me, instead of the actual me.

nice save

David's answer to my restaurant suggestion starts: Amy!
I tell myself he's not trying to make a point (about how many girls he's dating) but that it's just a typo of some kind. All the same, I don't answer that right away.

Monday, I find his apology, dated mega-late Saturday evening. I'm a little busy with work, and shouldn't have even been reading the messages, so I didn't answer right away.

I get another message Monday evening, apologizing again (and talking about his weekend with his son). Then I felt bad for letting him think I might be mad. Which I wasn't (just busy). I let him know I wasn't upset by it. I suppose I could have been, if I had some delusional idea that I was his girlfriend. But, that's just not the case.
Good for him apologizing without waiting for me to say something.

this is me

I finally give David the whole spiel. What my "dating" has consisted of over the past 8 years, my 3E's, all of it. I may have gotten a little defensive, but I tried to soften that with humor. And I told him that I'd had to think about how to answer him, how honest to be about it, how to make it sound less pathetic, etc. Basically, I put it all out there. (and thank you, girls, especially Marcy(love the way you put it), for your comments - you made me feel much better)
My office buddy says I'm out to sabotage myself, telling him all that stuff. A valid argument, but still, I feel he deserves the truth.
I end the thing by saying that I'm off home to bake a carrot cake and un-depress myself with my favorite movie. Adding "aren't I clever to work that in there (meaning the carrot cake), tempting you to meet me anyway, if only in the hope of someday finding out just how good my carrot cake is". Because he said earlier that he likes carrot cake.
(nope, doesn't sound any less lame reading that over again)
Maybe some part of me wants me to stay single? Whatever it is, this is me.